AND SHE WAS HAVING ALOT OF HARDER DAYS --- MOSTLY BECAUSE LEVELS WERE RUNNING INTO EACH OTHER --- ON EVERY LEVEL CHAOS WAS OCCURING --- IN ORDER TO DEAL WITH THIS --- SHE HAD TO EITHER WILL ORDER OF IT --- OR SHE HAD TO ORDER WILL OF IT --- EITHER WAY IT WOULD BE FINE --- OK I JUST DEALT WITH A GUY ON A CERTAIN LEVEL WHERE I NEED TO COMMUNICATE IMPORTANT INFORMATION --- I TOLD HIM IN ORDER FOR HIM TO BRING OVER SOME OF MY PAPERS HE TORE UP AND KEPT --- HE WOULD HAVE TO CALL HIS BROTHER AND HIS BROTHER WOULD HAVE TO CALL ME --- I DID THIS BECAUSE AS I WAS TALKING ON THE PHONE WHEN HE CALLED --- ITS GOING TO BE AWFUL AGAIN NO DONT DO IT --- HE TOLD ME IT WOULDNT BE AWFUL --- AND THAT WAS THE ONLY WAY I WOULD GET MY PAPERS --- HE JUST SAID LEAVE MY CAR OPEN AND HE WOULD LEAVE THEM --- THAT WOULD BE GOOD --- WHAT I TOLD HIM, WHEN HE CALLED WAS THAT I CANT HELP MYSELF BUT I CAN HELP ANY BODY ELSE ---- BECAUSE I AM ON A BUNCH OF LEVELS AT ONCE AND I CAN SEE --- AND ALL THE LEVELS ARE EXPERIENCING PROBLEMS --- I TRIED TO TELL HIM THAT ITS HARD TO DEAL WITH THE TERRIBLE STUFF ON SOME LEVELS --- ITS SCARY REALLY AND I CANT DO ANYTHING BECAUSE --- HE THINKS I AM TRYING TO DO STUFF THAT IM NOT --- THE THING IS I WOULD BE ME AND HE WOULD BE ON A STUPID LEVEL THAT DIDNT KNOW NOTHING ABOUT THE LEVEL I WAS SPEAKING FROM --- AND IT WOULD BE AWFUL SOME MORE --- IF EVERYONE WAS ON THE SAME LEVEL THERE WOULDNT BE A PROBLEM --- BUT THEIR NOT --- SO NO BODY IS KNOWING WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON --- I SHOULDNT HAVE TO FIGHT AND ALL THE STUFF I END UP DOING ON ALL THESE LEVELS --- BECAUSE I END UP DOING THAT INSTEAD OF THE GOD CREATOR STUFF AND I GET TO CONFUSED --- TODAY IT WAS VERY HARD TO KNOW EVERYTHING --- WITH OUT GOD GIVING ME DIRECTION --- WHO KNOWS WHERE I WOULD END UP --- SO BASICALLY ALL THAT HAS TO BE DONE IS --- WE WILL ORDER CHAOS FOR A MINUTE --- SO WE CAN GET A GRIP ON THINGS FOR A MINUTE --- HE WANTS TO KNOW THIS IS A VERY BIG DEAL --- WHAT HE DOESNT WANT TO KNOW IS THAT IT HAS A LOT TO DO SOME HOW ABOUT HIS BROTHER --- BUT HE NEVER ALLOWS ANY OF THAT TO GO ANY WHERE IT SHOULD --- I DONT KNOW WHAT HE DOES WITH IT BUT IT NEVER COMES BACK AFTER HE GETS IT FROM ME --- I GO OUT TO GET MY PAPERS AND INSIDE A BAG IS TORE UP PAPER WITH NIENER NIENER WRITTEN ON IT --- SO THERE IT IS --- AM I GLAD THAT I WAS TOLD NOT TO LET HIM IN --- BUT YOU SEE HE KNOWS SOME THINGS ON LEVELS ---WELL NOT REALLY --- HE KNOWS MY BEHAVIOR ON SOME LEVELS --- HE HAS BEEN STUDYING ME --- I ALMOST RAN RIGHT INTO A TREE COMING BACK IN --- BUT GOD GAVE ME A LOOK UP QUICK THING --- I THINK I TALK ALL OVER THE PLACE --- AND I THINK HE CAN PUT WHAT I AM SAYING WHERE I THINK IM SAYING IT AT --- IT GETS WORSE --- LETS SAY PAST PRESENT FUTURE --- THEN YOU HAVE TO KNOW THE DAY AND OR TIME --- ALSO TO WHO AND WHY --- BUT NOT REALLY ALL YOU HAVE TO KNOW IS WHAT ABOUT IT --- THEN IT WOULD BE VISIBLE WHAT I AM TRYING TO DEAL WITH --- I HAVE THINGS THAT I HAVE TO GO BY --- DEPENDING ON WHAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH --- I DONT DO WHAT EVERYONE ELSE DOES --- I FOLLOW INSTRUCTION FROM GOD --- I AM INSTRUCTED TO GIVE AN EXAMPLE HERE --- ON THIS PRESENT LEVEL WE ARE TO FOLLOW THE SAME RULES AS EVERYONE ELSE --- WHICH IS WHAT YOUR ALL DOING --- DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO AT ANY COST --- USE ANY AND EVERY THING YOU NEED TO --- LET NOTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY --- NOW IF YOU ARE NOT GOING BY THESE RULES YOU ARE NOT AHEAD OF THE GAME AND YOU ARE IN ROME --- BUT YOUR NOT DOING AS THE ROMANS ARE DOING --- WHEN IN ROME AND ALL THAT --- IF WE HAVE TO WE WILL DO ANYTHING AND THERE ISNT ANY THING WE CANT DO --- WILL WE IS A DIFFERENT THING ALL TOGETHER --- ITS POSSIBLE TO MAKES US JUMP AROUND --- THATS WHERE I GET CONFUSED --- IF NO ONE WAS MESSING WITH US WE WOULD BE FINE --- SOME TIMES I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND HOW COME ABOUT SOME STUFF --- BUT THERE IS SOME STUFF I CANT KNOW --- RIGHT NOW I AM TIRED --- I AM GOING TO SEW SOMETHING --- NOW WAS THAT A FAIRYTALE OR WHAT --- I WROTE THIS TALE ON JUNE 14 --- ITS NOW JULY 4 --- I SWEAR IT SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN A YEAR --- I HAD A CRASH IN MY SPACESHIP AND IT SEEMS I NEED TO DO THE REPAIRS MYSELF --- AT LEAST I AM ABLE TO GET THIS FAR --- THERE IS ALOT I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO DO --- IT WILL BE SLOW GOING BUT I WILL BE OUT IN SPACE WITH MY TURBO GEARS FROM WORDPRESS --- AND MY PATCHED UP SHIP --- TEARING IT UP --- I HAVE A FEW THINGS TO CORRECT --- OUT HERE AND ALSO ON THE GLOBE --- NO BIG THING --- THEN I CAN GET ON IT WITH NO PROBLEM --- AND MAYBE I WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE MY FAMILY HAPPY --- MY SON COREY TOLD ME THAT I AM NOT ACTING AS THEY WOULD LIKE ME TO --- AND THAT I SAY THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE --- SO MY FAMILY IS PUT ME OUT OF THIER BOUNDS FOR NOW --- I TOLD HIM I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM DOING THE MATTER --- FOR EVERYONE TO BE MAD AT ME --- HE TOLD ME TO FIND OUT HOW EVERYONE WHATS ME TO BE AND DO THAT --- TO TALK THE WAY EVERYONE THINKS THEY WANT ME TO --- THEN MAYBE I CAN VISIT HIM AND MY GRAND DAUGHTERS --- AND MAYBE I WILL BE ABLE TO GO TO MY SON JONS HOUSE --- SO THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I HAVE A FEW THINGS TO WORK ON BESIDES THIS BUSTED SHIP --- TRYING TO GET MY GOD STUFF CORRECT --- A BUSTED --- REAL BUSTED RELATIONSHIP --- THIS TRANSLATION STUFF --- AND WORKING OUT THE WORLD PARTY STUFF --- WELL THIS IS GOING TO HAVE TO DO FOR THE MOMENT --- AS IT IS --- I COULD LOSE ANOTHER PART ANY MINUTE AND BE STRANDED AGIAN --- SO I AM GOING TO REST AND SEE HOW IT GOES WHEN I GET UP --- I MISSED THE FIREWORKS --- FIXING THIS TIN CAN --- HEY DOES ANYBODY OUT HERE KNOW WHAT A PCI BUS IS --- OR MULTIMEDIA CONTROLLER OR VGA COMPATIABLE ---OR CODE 28 --- WELL I GET ON IT LATER --- I DONT KNOW IF THEY WILL LET THIS GO OUT OR NOT --- IF NOT I WILL TRY SOMETHING ELSE LATER --- OH DONT WORRY AS HUMANS GO WE ARE DOING FINE WITH EVOLUTION AND SO FORTH --- I SEEM TO BE THE ONE HAVING ALL THE PROBLEMS --- I WILL KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU IN A MINUTE --- THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I GOTTA GO DANCE OR I WILL LOSE MY I WAS GOING TO SAY MIND --- THATS FUNNY --- THANKS PIXIE AND GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION
Stephenie --- I know a couple of things right now ---I might not have it when we get here --- so maybe you can help me put it together --- OK I know that --- remember I told you about when I saw the everything --- well I did it again only much faster --- I didnt know I could do that --- it was pretty cool --- any way it had to do with eistien and quantum stuff --- and strings --- this is what I need you to know right now --- I have it but its back in pieces --- now the good thing is I saw it total just not but minutes ago --- this is a big deal ---because we can really know some things --- any way --- I found out that it was because I was looking at a picture it do it --- and I could have typed out some stuff about what I was seeing about the picture --- not very much cause real correct stuf is very simple --- simple enough for an average turnup to get --- or it is not it --- or correct --- at that moment --- what would have contained eons to accomplish --- and impossible amounts of data --- I could have stated with typing maybe 9 words --- with the correct words in the correct place at the correct moment --- to be entered into at some where and sometime --- and at this moment I know to tell you that this goes with your one about internmet stuff you got back there --- got that good --- be sure to mark it some how because you will have to get us back to where ever we are when your reading this --- oh this is a different one now --- when we are on one you cant spin us into left field --- thats important --- cause when you do that we lose those and --- those dont come back --- and they could be keys to things --- ok I hope your with me so far --- I have to be able to when stuff does what it does --- I need to be able to push a button on my ship and write it --- if I have to stop and do any thing else I lose it --- as whole --- then I only get the pieces that dont make sense --- so that should help us do what ever it is we are trying top do --- I dont know but I am pretty sure we will get farther faster or at all --- oh the word was shit I lost the damn word --- I hate it when that happens --- oh I cant know like other people --- I cant do an appointment --- I cant use a pen and pap I need to be able to just get it out fast for a second --- if I can do that then I will be able to learn wehat Im knowing --- good lord did we get this one --- I hope we get some of this --- cause its got lots in it for your stuff and my stuff and alot of other peoples stuff --- oh about qutum stuff the most important thing is spiral --- but not how any one would think --- I can see it but I cant get any words so thats that stuff when it comes its not alot to communicate --- the important part of those things is that its a steady stream there can be no pause period --- not for luch not for questions not for coffee --- you have to know everything is not connected together as one whole ---you have to know everything is connected together as everything is touching something --- everything is touching something so you have to think in terms of there is nothing that isnt touched in some way by some thing always ever --- all levels call them levels --- spiral makes levels then think in terms of say emotion on a different level then you think in terms different level of spiaral of existance --- now thats some of the stuff thats not mine and I dont know where it goes but it looked pretty cool to me --- did you get that -- actually to me that was like disneyland --- I love it when it does that --- oh you cant take us spinning on $ home car --- any of that those are to much of a leap and we fall in the middle and never get out so far its not a problem --- well its never a problem --- cause we cant fuck shit up even if we wanted to --- but I know that I saw it being fine --- on its own --- so right now I know its all fine as long as we do this then that will do that --- so lets not do that again ok cause I only no more of those times left that I will do with anyone and I am out --- whow that was a thing I bet --- what ever that was I couldnt see it --- so I hope you got it cause it was yours --- the thing is I feel like Im having a earthquake mayor inside intense for a second --- which tells me that was a direct communication from god --- theres only one thing that feels and stuff --- its a god one so there you have it --- I feel like I went on a trip --- any way I used to have a button on my mouse that would say tag --- and I would and then I could just write or type what was there --- I mean how stupid I feel right now --- oh I keep forgeting t paper --- I am like totally suspended right now --- now that was a so very correct word --- see now I know if everyone was using the correct word in the correct place at the correct moment --- oh my god doesnt any body but me and almost you --- know what that could effect --- that was a perfect word thing --- we could help if any one needs it --- they just have to know this at the same time --- they need to know they are doing or thinking --- if you could all say no one owes you anything there would be no debt --- if we could come together as the mass we would have power to do the things that needed to be done --- wer have to stop the separations of us as the mass --- I will get back to you on this --- we are begining to go through a shift --- it hasnt strarted yet but its getting close --- we need to get prepared --- it will be something like the alignment of the universe --- it has to do with completion --- be sure to ask me about this when we get back to work --- I have to try and replace this letter with the previous one --- I was having a real bad night brought on by the shift thats coming in --- thanks see ya on the flip PIXIE AND GOD CREATOR OF ALL CREATION
The Doors talk about alot of important stuff that I thought we were suppose to find --- but I forgot that each generation has its own thing to do about the great WORK --- this is where the mass can come together --- no one has done anything to divide or seperate the generations --- from any single one or as groups --- thats the only way ---- so we can do a number of things as generations --- no matter how many we are --- no one can do a damn thing --- and for each generation --- to do one thing together as a generation IS IS IS A GOD GIVEN COMMANDMENT --- AND THAT IS IS IS THE ONE AND THE ONLY COMMANDMENT EVER MADE BY ANY ONE WITH THE AUTHORITY TO MAKE ANY KIND OF GOD LAW --- THAT WAS TO BE OBEYED --- FOLLOWED --- ALL THAT STUFF --- i WOULD SUGGEST THAT YOU REALIZE YOU CAN PULL OFF SOME PRETTY COOL SHIT WITH THIS --- BUT YOU HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER --- JUST FOR INFORMATION --- THE DOORS ON THIER CONCERT CD ARE TALKING ABOUT PYRIMIDS --- THE THING ABOUT THIS IS THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT THINGS I THOUGHT WE HAD TO WORK ON --- I THOUGHT WE HAD TO LOOK FOR ALOT OF STUFF CAUSE IT WAS TAKEN FROM ANTIQUITY --- WELL THATS ALREADY BEEN FOUND AND STOLDEN FROM WHO FOUND IT --- NOW IF YOU UNDERSTAND THAT THE ERA OF ROCK -N- ROLL --- VIETNAM --- PEACE AND LOVE --- SO MUCH --- DRUGS --- FREE LOVE --- OK THEN DONT CHECK THAT OUT --- THE SAME TIME HOW MANY ROCK - N- ROLL BANDS HAD TRAGIC THINGS HAPPEN --- HOW MANY PEOPLE --- US AND ALSO THEM --- WERE KILLED --- TO LOOK ONE WAY IT LOOKS LIKE THE GOVERNMENTS WERE TRYING TO KILL WHOLE GENERATIONS --- ANY WAY THEY COULD --- EVEN WITH WAR THAT STILL MAKES NO SENSE --- ESPECAILLY --- FOR THE BODY COUNT --- ALSO HITLER WAS WIPING OUT CERTAIN GENERATIONS --- IT LOOKSC LIKE THEY ARE'NT FIGHTING WARS --- AS MUCH AS IT LOOKS LIKE THEY ARE ERACING GENERATIONS --- SELECTIVLY --- IT ALSO LOOKS AS THOUGH THE POWERS AND OR COUNTRY'S ARE ALL IN LEAGUE TOGETHER --- BUT LOOK AT ALL THE SEPARATIONS OF COUNTRIE'S--- LET ALONE ALL THE DIVISION OF EACH --- CANT ANY ONE SEE ANY THING --- WELL IF YOU COULD KEEP SOME OF THIS IN MIND --- AND AT LEAST LISTEN AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND --- THAT GENERATION --- PAID A HIGH PRICE --- NOW IF YOU WERE TO ASK WHY --- YOU MIGHT FIND THAT THE GOVERNMENTS WERE FIGHTING THEM --- WHY --- WELL IF YOU ASK WHY WERE ROCK N ROLL LEGENDS KILLED --- YOU MIGHT LISTEN TO THE MUSIC --- THEY WERE TRYING TO GET ACROSSED --- IT MIGHT INTEREST YOU TO KNOW THAT THEY WERE DYING TO MAKE SURE THIER MUSIC WOULD GET TO YOU NOW --- THE PYRIMID PEOPLE DIED TO MAKE SURE THE PYRIMIDS MADE IT TO NOW --- I THINK ITS VERY IGNORANT OF PEOPLE TO BE SO WHAT EVER YOU WOULD CALL YOURSELVES TODAY --- WELL LETS SAY THIS --- ASK THIS QUETIONN ---
MAYUBE I HAVENT BEEN WHERE THEY ARE --- BUT I WAS WONDERING WHERE THEY MIGHT BE --- OK TELL ME IF I AM OUT OF LINE --- DOES ANY ONE KNOW THAT --- IF EVERY SINGLE PERSON --- HELPPED --- 11111111111111111`1111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111
1111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111111 just one ---one person helped --- one other person --- no one --- no one any one --- anywhere --- anytime --- NOT ONE PERSON --- WOULD NEED --- HELP --- NOW YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO
THANK YOU PIXY AND GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION I HAVE TO WRITE THE WORD PERIOD --- BECAUSE SOME ONE WILL STEAL THE PERIOD --- AND PUNCH IT OUT --- AN MAKE IT A ZERO ---- DO YOU KNOW THAT --- IF YOU PUT A CANCER GERM WITH A COLD GERM --- THE COLD GERM WOULD EAT THE CANCER GERM AFTER IT KILLED IT --- A BUG INSIDE --- MAKING YOU ILL --- CAN NOT BE TREATED --- ESPECIALLY--- IF ITS OUT TRYING TO GO IN --- EVERYTHING COMESD FROM IN AND GOES OUT --- THAT SHOULD BE ENOUGH --- BUT WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSE TO DO --- IS EXSPEL --- WHAT IS IN OUT --- SWEAT SNOT SPEECH ANY WAY WE CAN WE HAVE TO GET IT OUT --- OK DOES ANY ONE WANT TO KNOW THE MYSTERY OF THE PYRMIDS --- OK WE'LL TELL YA --- THEY WERE BUILT --- ON PURPOSE --- UPSIDE DOWN --- \/ \/ \/ \/ \/ \/ \/\/\/ --- OK LETS SAY THIS --- LETS SAY I HAVE MY HEAD SO FAR UP MY ASS --- I CANT SEE --- SO LETS DO WHAT IF --- WHAT IF I AM CORRECT --- I HAVE SAFETYS --- THATS A BARGAIN WITH GOD --- DO ANY OF YOU HAVE ONE THATS --- SIGNED BY GOD --- MINE IS OUT THERE IN A BLOG --- OH YE OF LITTLE FAITH --- THANKS PIXY AND GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION
YOU KNOW I DONT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE --- BUT I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH SO MANY SO OFTEN --- I HAVE HEARD ALL THE OPPINIONS --- ALL THE THEORIES --- ALL THE COMPLAINTS --- ALL THE WORRIES --- I HAVE HEARD IT ALL FROM SO MANY FOR A VERY LONG TIME NOW --- I HAVE DONE ALL I COULD TO TRY AND GERT THIS CORRECT --- AND SO FAR I HAVE ACCOMPLICHED THIS --- BUT TO PLEASE EVERY ONE IS NOT WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO --- I FOLLOW INSTRUCTION FROM GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION --- I WILL NOT FOLLOW ANY MAN OR THAT OF MAN KIND --- BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE THAT HASNT DIED OR IS GOING TO --- NO ONE HAS ANY ANWSERS TO ANY QUESTIONS THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO LIFE OR DEATH FOR THAT MATTER --- THOSE THAT DO HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY CAN ONLY GO AS FAR AS THE BOOKS THEY HAVE READ --- THEY CANT GO BEYOND THAT --- I AM NOT TRYING TO PUT ANYONE DOWN IN ANY WAY --- I AM NOT TRYING TO DISCOUNT ANYONES EFFORTS --- I KNOW HOW HARD YOU TRY --- I KNOW THE HARD WORK --- I SEE EVERYTHING YOU ALL DO AND HAVE DONE --- THIS IS EXCELLENT --- I JUST WISH THAT I WAS GIVEN AT LEAST THAT OR ANY PART FROM ANYONE EVER --- NOT SO THAT YOU THINK ANY BETTER OF ME --- BUT SO YOU CAN GAIN A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF THE THINGS YOU HAVE AND THE KNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE --- SO YOU CAN GO FUTHER THAN YOU ARE --- I NEED NOTHING FROM YOU --- YOU CAN NOT BENIFIT ME AS I AM CARRIED IN THE PALM OF GODS RIGHT HAND AND AM BELOVED BY HIM --- PUT I ALSO WORK FOR HIM --- AND YOU ARE PART OF MY JOB --- I AM ONLY ALLOWED TO KNOW ONE THING FROM GOD EVER AND THAT IS EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE --- OTHER THAN THAT HE HAS INFORMED ME --- I AM NOT ALLOWED TO KNOW A THING --- GO FIGURE --- AT THAT TIME I TRIED TO QUIT AND TOLD HIM TO SHOVE HIS JOB --- WELL THAT WAS SEVERAL YEARS AGO --=- SO WE KNOW WHERE THAT WENT --- I CAN ONLY KNOW ANY THING AT THE MOMENT I NEED TO KNOW IT --- HE TOLD ME ITS USELESS TO KNOW OTHER THAN THAT --- I THINK THATS HOW IT GOES --- NOW THE THING IS --- I DONT GET WORDS I DONT HEAR WORDS --- ITS JUST THERE IT IS AND I CAN SEE IT AND ITS GREAT BUT HOW DO YOU SAY THAT --- SO I HAVE TO MAKE IT BE WORDS SO I CAN BRING IT TO MY BRAIN AND KNOW WHAT EVER IT IS GOD IS SHOWING ME --- THEN TO TELL YOU I HAVE TO TRY TO PUT WORDS THAT YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I AM SAYING --- THE THING IS THAT WHAT I AM SHOWN I CANT FIND ANYTHING IN COMPARISION --- SO I GET AS CLOSE AS I CAN --- OR I CAN TURN IT TO KIND OF STORIES --- SO THATS IT IN A NUT SHELL --- TO ANWSER A COUPLE OF QUESTIONS --- I AM 54 YEARS OLD I HAVE BEEN THIS WAY ALL MY LIFE --- I WAS ADOPTED WHEN I WAS 24 HOURS OLD --- THIS IS KIND OF A LONG STORY SO I WILL JUST GIVE DETAILS --- I ENDED UP ONE OF THE OLDEST OF A FAMILY OF 11 PEOPLE --- I WAS RAISED MOSTLY IN UTAH AS A MORMON FORCED TO DO EVERY THING BY EVERYONE --- WE WERE POVERTY STRICKEN --- FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS --- IT MEANS YOU HAVE NOTHING --- FINDING FOOD WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT --- SHELTER AND WARMTH FOLLOW --- BACK THEN IT WAS LEGAL TO TAKE YOUR CHILDREN OUT OF SCHOOL TO HELP SUPPORT THE FAMILY --- I WAS TAKEN OUT OF SCHOOL AT ABOUT THE FOURTH GRADE --- I WOULD HAVE LOVED AN EDUCATION BUT I NEVER GOT THAT LUXSURY --- I CAN NOT REALLY READ OR WRITE IN CURSIVE --- I DO BEST WITH CAPITOL LETTERS --- I DONT KNOW HOW PERIODS AN COMMAS WORK SO WHEN I WRITE I JUST TALK AND PUT LINES WHERE I STOP OR WHAT EVER --- SO THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I HAVE NEVER READ AN ENTIRE BOOK FRONT TO BACK --- I GAVE BIRTH TO 5 CHILDREN 3 LIVED --- I LOST MY YOUNGEST IN 1999 --- I RAISED THEM ALONE AS THIER FATHER WAS AN EXTREMELY VIOLENT MAN --- MOST OF MY GROWING UP I PICKED FRUIT ECT --- AND I HAVE ALWAYS WORKED AS LABORER IN ONE SENSE OR ANOTHER --- I CONSIDER MYSELF A CRIMINAL AS I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE DOING SOMETHING SOME ONE THINKS I SHOULDNT --- BUT I HAVE NEVER HAD FAMILY AS YOU KNOW FAMILY --- NOR HAVE I HAD THE THINGS LIKE EDUCATION HOME CAR FRIENDS --- YOUR STANDARD BACK GROUND AS YOU HAVE --- SO I DO THINGS DIFFERENT THAN MOST --- I HAVE SEEN PSYCIATRISTS ECT ALL MY LIFE AND I AM DIAGNOSED PSCSIFINIC --- I AM CONSIDERED MENTLLY DISABLED AS I CANT BE AROUND PEOPLE VERY WELL BECAUSE I HAVE A TERRIFFIC FEAR OF THEM --- I BELIEVE IT IS FROM THE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN DONE TO ME BY EVERYONE I COME IN CLOSE CONTACT WITH --- I AM TRYING TO WORK ON THIS --- I AM TRYING TO DISCOVER IF SOME PEOPLE WONT HURT ME --- I HAVE BEEN IN PRISON EVEN THOUGH I WAS INNOCENT OF THAT CRIME --- I WAS A HOOKER BUT AT THE TIME I HAD 3 BOYS THAT HAD NO ROOF OR FOOD --- I GOT MY EDUCATION WHICH STARTED IN A CLOSET FROM GOD --- I WAS ALWAYS PUNISHED AND PART OF THE PUNISHMENT WAS BEING KEPT IN A CLOSET --- I CAN TAKE PYSICAL ABUSE THE BEST NEXT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL ABUSE --- I HAVE THE MOST DIFFICULTY WITH MENTAL ABUSE --- BECAUSE I DO HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS M,OSTLY BECAUSE MY ABUSE STARTED AT BIRTH --- SO IN ORDER TO FUNCTION I HAVE TAUGHT MYSELF CERTAIN THINGS TO DO AND HAVE SET THEM TO RUN AUTOMATIACLY --- BUT WHEN SOMETHIONG COMES IN THATS NOT RECOGNIZIED--- IT THROWS EVERYTHING OFF AND IT TAKES AWHILE TO GET BACK --- AS I HAVE ALOT OF DIFFERENT THINGS GOING ON INSIDE --- I HAVE THE GOD STUFF I HAVE THE NUT STUFF I HAVE THE FUNCTIONING STUFF --- ANY WAY I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO DO JUST TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A THOUGHT --- ITS NO BIG THING IT JUST IS ALOT OF WORK TO HAVE TO BACK UP AND RESTART --- I AM NOT TRYING TO BE ANYTHING I AM ONLY TRYING TO HELP AND TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS --- I DONT CLAIM TO KNOW ANYTHING BECAUSE I GET WHAT I KNOW FROM GOD --- I AM NOT BOTHERED BY MUCH AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT IMPRESSES ME --- MUCH --- WELL ANY WAY THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I HAVE TO GO DO SOME LIFE THINGS RIGHT NOW I HOPE WHAT I HAVE PROVIDED HERE HELPS WITH SOME OF THE THINGS YOU MAY HAVE WONDERED ABOUT ME --- I FIND ITS BETTER TO LISTEN OTHER THAN TO JUST START TALKING BEFORE YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT --- ALSO TO KNOW THAT YOU DONT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING --- IT WILL BE YOUR SAVING GRACE IF WE EVER GET THAT FAR --- IT IS NOT SO FAR OUT THAT THERE MAYBE ANWSERS TO THOSE QUESTIONS AND THERE COULD BE MORE TO EVERYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT YOU KNOW --- AND IT COULD BE LIFE IS SOMETHING THAT WE ARE GOING TO EXPERIENCE --- OTHER THAN THE EXISTENCE WE ARE EXPERINCING --- ITY COULD BE WE HAVE BEEN INCORRECT ABOUT EVERYTHING --- IT COULD BE THE TRUTH OF ALL IS AS CLOSE AS YOUR MONITOR OF YOUR SPACESHIP --- IT COULD BE THERE IS A REASON FOR OUR BEING HERE AND IT COULD BE IF SOMEONE HAD ALITTLE HELP --- THEY COULD EXPLAIN HOW IT ALL WORKS --- AS WELL AS LET YOU ROCKET SCIENTISTS CHECK IT OUT --- IT COULD BE THAT I IN FACT DO HAVE A GOD CHANNEL --- IT COULD BE WE WERE INTENDED TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY ALL THAT GOD HAS DONE --- IT COULD BE THAT GOD HAD A PLAN BUT SOMEONE DIDNT KNOW HOW TO READ PLANS --- SO I WOULD STOP AND LOOK AROUND IF I DIDNT KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING OR WHERE I HAD BEEN --- BEFORE I TOOK ANOTHER STEP --- MOSTLY BECAUSE FOR ALL I KNOW I COULD BE MAKING A BIG MESS OF SOMEONES HARD WORK ---
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